About Myself

Hi All,

Hope you had a good weekend.Mine was pretty bad.Had end term exams on Saturday and Sunday :-(

On Saturday,we had a small farewell gathering for a colleague,lets call her Lily.About 20 of us had gathered in the canteen.Among them ,my PM and 2 senior members.

We all had to say ,one by one,something about/for her.
My PM said Lily was like a daughter for her and that they worked like a family and all blah blah...

It was my turn now and I was merrily chatting with somebody.My PM(who is her boss as well) yelled "Hashim,it is your turn".
I said ,quite loudly (so that everybody could hear) " Lily had to work under lot of pressure and suffered a lot here,so I wish her peace and happiness at her new company".

Everybody laughed,other than my PM whose face was ashen because everybody knew she pressurized Lily all the time.


What am I trying to prove here????Is that on your mind now???

Just wanted to let you know about my nature. I can't pretend. I just can't stand people lie so blatantly.And I hate hypocrites.

But I must admit that what I did was not a very intelligent move.I need to be soft and nice to my seniors all the time to climb up the corporate ladder. Many of my friends and colleagues do that.
Day in,Day out.
I just can't.

If I do not like somebody,I can't be sugary sweet to him/her,no matter who they are....
I would rather not talk to them,than be extremely respectful in their front and talk cheaply about the same people behind their backs.

I am FRANK.What you see is what you get. My nature will get me into trouble often and I will never have too many friends because I am not diplomatically nice and boring or cunning.

And you know what?I did try to change myself. I did try to be sugary sweet to people I loathe, like some of my friends do but never succeeded. If I am not true to myself,then how do I sleep peacefully at night? If I pretend to be like someone else all the time ,how do I find my true self?

You can cheat others but can you chat yourself?That too ,in the long run??

Is all the buttering worth it?